Cancer,
Covid-19 and Courage
I remember it so clear…Thursday, January 16. It was cold and the sun was shining. I had an 8:30 am appointment for my annual mammogram and ultrasound. I was then headed to pick up Angie to head to our coffee spot. Ben had a swim meet that night and a pasta party (it was the night before the Torrington meet). The technician was taking an unusually long time with her scans. At one point she actually walked out. That’s when I thought, something is wrong. When she came back into the room, the doctor followed her. Why was he here? He said, “We see something and believe it is cancer. You’ll need to go to the breast surgeon right away”. “WHAT?” I thought. He must be wrong. This was just my routine exam. Something I do every year. It’s on my list. I got dressed and went to the car. I felt numb and not sure what to do next. I always have my next step planned so this was an uncomfortable feeling. I was frightened.
I sat in the cold car
and thought…
What am I going to do?
I still have so much to do, and Cancer is not on my list.
All of a
sudden, I was no longer in control and I did not like it. You know the feeling. I am sure you have been there at one time or another in your life. Perhaps now?
And then came COVID-19.
Are you kidding me? While we may have all approached this nasty virus in different ways, one thing is universal. It has brought horrific disruption to our lives. It has taken
away treasured moments that would have given us all memories to cherish. Just
think of all the…remember when’s we would have from 2020 to treasure
forever. I have my own long list and I am sure you do as well.
Cancer sucks. COVID-19 sucks. Through it all, you are expected to be courageous. Both of these horrible enemies, robbed us of so much. Both require courage to fight, courage like never before.
Well, it’s a new year, with new beginnings and new resolutions (some we need to keep). It’s a cold January morning and the sun is shining. We’re still in battle. I’m winning this battle and have all intentions of being victorious in the end. For those of you in your own battles, for those of you who are warriors who need to be courageous…continue to be strong. Dig deep within to find a strength, you never knew existed. Lean on others when you need to (that shows even greater strength) and know that you are loved by many. It’s a New Year, so let’s hit the refresh button and continue on in the battle.
To those of you who
worked harder than ever in 2020 on the front lines and behind the scenes, thank
you for leading us in the battle and for your own bravery and courage. We
will follow your lead. To those of you who lost loved ones in 2020 and your
hearts are breaking, my heart aches along with you and while we can’t be
together for me to comfort you, you are in my thoughts and prayers every day.
And to those of you who can’t yet feel the hope that 2021 can bring, know that you
are loved, and we will come out of this battle victorious.
Happy New Year to all!
Happy New Year from one survivor to another! I pray this year will put a huge hurtin' on CoVid so we can return to some sense of normalcy. I continue to remember you in my daily prayers, Nora. Blessings to you!
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